LuckyLabrador, I want to thank you so much for this thread.
It has helped me re-examine myself and my roots at a time I
really need to.
In that foggy past, I was a hybrid hippie/Christian, which
means I didn’t get to enjoy either existence. I had the look,
desires and feelings of the hippie culture, but couldn’t fulfill
them because of my Christian restraints. How many times I passed
up sex or drugs astounds me as I flirted with being a hippie.
I chose to be a Christian, and then did drugs and had sex with
too many partners, but not enough for me.
I know that sounds strange and totally twisted.
"Freedom is just another word, for nothing left to lose."
It didn’t take me long to realize I had much to lose.
It has, and still is, taking me long to realize how much
others has for me and how much I can give back to them.
I really don’t know what a hippie is or was. I can say the same for
my quest of being a Christian. I guess I am messed up.
I am just searching…sadly at times, and joyfully when I discover
the wonder of life when I make fruitful connections with others.
I once wrote a bitter poem about how the hippie movement had
failed. But it hasn’t. It evolved, evolved as all true living
The Legend of Hippies can inspire us or we can be like Cartman
on "South Park" and hunt down the g-d dam- hippies.
I am trying to understand and improve the "Am." I am what I am and trying to grow into
what can be. So, I am still a poor hippie/Christian hybrid.
I hope I don’t fail, because I don’t want my past to be mere memories of my dreams.
I want my dreams realized in the future.